Day 16

this is how i feel at the moment....like an empty book. there is nothing much going on inside me....or if there is it makes no sense.
most of the emptiness is creative, there's just nothing, and of course stressing just makes it a lot worse! in terms of my residency and what i 'should' be doing, yeah it's just not happening. i guess if i am brutally honest, i also haven't been doing much to inspire myself. so the stress increases and today it was horrendous. anxiety to boot, which then encroaches on all other parts of my life. it's pretty bloody horrid.
today though i got off my arse and went and saw a movie. i didn't actually go to inspire myself, i had a mate who i'd said i'd take to the movies and so we went. i so glad we did. it was a great movie and gave me some fodder to think about. good ole woody allen!